VERSE 1 (Crucifix)
I live life like a renegade drifter, losing myself on the open road. Running from the pains of a sinner, cuz ain’t no band-aid for a broken soul. The Devil’s steady tearing out the best of me, screaming “fair game” but he must’ve lied. Cuz now there ain’t too much left of me, but I ain’t slowing down until I’m justified. I done been steady swinging at the bottom of a hangman’s rope. Maybe it’s a sad plan dreaming, I’m a madman screaming... but I can’t stop believing there’s hope. Oh Lord.

HOOK
I’m like a dead man walking back from the grave to find where I went wrong. Everything I love is dead and gone, every night I sing this dead man’s song. I got hell on a trigger, got a bottle of Jack and I’m right where I belong, stuck in between heaven and being dead wrong, so from here until I’m dead and gone I’m a dead man walking.

VERSE 2 (The Lacs)
This life has got me barely holding by a single thread, gripping on my pistol, squeezing triggers until my finger’s red. A lot of folks they like to judge, nudging then they hang their head. Hypocrites that don’t give a shit, no common sense don’t bring the dead. Name calling and pointing fingers and laying blame don’t bother me, as long as y'all don’t touch me, my family and my property. My prophecy wasn’t prodigy, in the ground I’ll probably be but I’m standing up and I’m raising hell so won’t you come and follow me. I’m a cornered up, pissed off cracker in a cage. Get you one coin missed call, take it to the grave. I guess I’ll take the mask off and let you judge me, but the looking didn’t last long cuz bitch I’m ugly. I can’t blend in, eyes cut you to the bone, now my covers been blown, I’m supposed to be alone. Like a hairpin trigger kill, I don’t know we’re wrong but I keep singing this song and I’m stuck under a stone.

HOOK
I’m like a dead man walking back from the grave to find where I went wrong. Everything I love is dead and gone, every night I sing this dead man’s song. I got hell on a trigger, got a bottle of Jack and I’m right where I belong, stuck in between heaven and being dead wrong, so from here until I’m dead and gone I’m a dead man walking.

HOOK
I’m living life my way, full throttle down the highway. Leaving behind what’s behind me, living like I can’t die chasing another sunrise. I’m living life my way, full throttle down the highway. If today is my last day, know that I died alive riding til the sunrise.

VERSE 1
When the day gets dark and the lights go out, and I’m looking back on everything I’ve lost trying to figure out what this life’s about. Doubt hits hard like a 12 gauge, stuck in the muck of my old ways just trying to get lost in the moment and forget about the past because the past is like a damn cage. Be a man that can stand when the time’s right, be you, be true in the limelight but my thoughts are lost with each shot, so rocked and still shocked by the view in my hindsight. Walking tall through hell so steady, still living cuz hell wasn’t ready. Everything in my past is so heavy so you know I stay high like a jacked up Chevy. Cuz there’s nothing better than finally letting go like the world is mine and I was born a drifting soul, right. A little whiskey and an open road, riding through the night chasing another sunrise.

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VERSE 2
When the sun goes down and the drinks go around, and I’m thinking back on everything I’ve lost, the view from up top ain’t bad looking down. Another day another State line, I’m done letting the Devil trying to take mine. Living life one city at a time just tipping back that moonshine, because the pain’s so constant but enough is enough with the nonsense. All the women and the drugs and the violence, weighing like a million-one tons on my conscience. So i put it in a bag of bones and when the wheels stop rolling I’m back at home, then stop... Put the peddle to the metal when I wake up in the morning then I’m gone. There’s nothing better than finally letting go like the world is mine and I was born a drifting soul, right. A little whiskey and an open road, riding through the night chasing another sunrise. I want to die alive, put the world to my back and ride.

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BRIDGE
I’m living like I’ll never die, cigarette ashes blowing through the night. I put the world to my back and just ride, no regrets I just want to die alive. I lean back and just let it go like everything in the past is old. I put it on my mama I’m a drifting soul and these tires been through plenty of hell before. I’ve been there, I’ve done that, I’m done with that, ain’t looking back... now it’s nothing but my way and the highway.

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HOOK
I’m raising hell in a Chevrolet. It must’ve been the Devil in the Fireball. Let the police take me away and we can just blame it on the alcohol. Cuz I’ll be damned on a good day if I ain’t lit no not at all. I’m just a good man running from the man that I’m becoming while I’m dancing with the Devil in the Fireball.

VERSE 1
I pour pain on the beat and let it bleed like I ain’t human and I’m gon’ stand on my feet no matter what nobody around me doing. Cuz I done been through the thickest fire, soul looking like I drug it through some chicken-wire. About 20 plus years past wondering why, let’s keep it real some birds don’t get to fly. I ain’t a man to shed tears about the past or some bullshit that I can’t change, but I found the Devil at the bottom of a bottle so I told him “pick me up if you’re going that way.”

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VERSE 2
The Devil told me, “take a dip in the bottle and start swimming, you can let your troubles disappear into the fire. Tomorrow ain’t nothing but more of the same, you can bottle it up or turn that bottle up high.” It got the room spinning like a twister, I’m so messed up, shooting like a stolen pistol on the creep. Lock and load. Steady scheming on a dream of seeing meaning while I’m leaning like a dirty politician on a demon. Because I’m broken at the bottom, always feeling rotten, always feel forgotten, like I’m just the product of a broken condom. Or a sip short of Heaven, let the Fireball tell ‘em. Then cock back, take a shot straight to the cerebellum. Like click, click, boom!

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OUTRO
It’s got me dancing with the Devil tonight. ‘Til it’s gone, I’m gonna kill it until it’s gone, I’m gonna pick that bottle up and and tip it back until it’s gone.

VERSE 1
Empty bottles sit scattered on a nightstand, cigarette butt burning in my right hand, laying blacked out covered in some white sand... if you’re talking role model, bitch I ain’t the right man. Matter of fact I’m a pretty big mess, holding on to what little I got left. I put my sin through your speakers to confess, pouring pain into song to get the shit up off my chest. I’m a Dirtbag, so far from a role model, feeling like I sold my soul for a cold bottle. Now I’m swimming at the bottom of my own sorrow, running dick first to the grave, going full throttle. Everybody’s like, “What the hell you thinking?” Cutting line after line after line when I’m drinking. So I’ll be the first to say “fuck the world” without blinking because you hypocrites wasn’t there for me when I was sinking, now I’m gone!

HOOK
I’m lost in life, I’m stuck in my wayz. It’s like I can’t go right because I’m stuck in my way. I got nothing left in life, nothing left to say and I wonder why I’m always stuck in my way. I’m like a force I can’t name, I’m stuck in my wayz. Another day more of the same, I’m stuck in my wayz. It’s like I’m never gonna change, I’m stuck in my way. I’m the cause of my pain I’m stuck in my wayz.

VERSE 2
I ain’t trying to make my habits my excuse, cuz in the end I’m to blame, what’s the use? Either be a man and face the fucking truth or face God as a sinner with 190 proofs. I can’t lie, I’m living on the edge in life and sometimes I just want to get ahead in life, sometimes I just want to numb my head at night, but sometimes I just want to be dead in life! Cuz on the real, I’m sick of fucking up. I’m sick of looking back and always hurting who I loved. I’m sick of seeing them holding on until they had enough and now they’re walking out the door because they’re finally giving up and so I’m praying “Dear God! I really need some help! I’m failing at this life, I can’t do it by myself! Put me in the grave just don’t put me on the shelf! All I’m asking for is strength just to get me through this hell and it’s hell until I’m gone! I’m lost in life, I’m stuck in my wayz. It’s like I can’t go right because I’m stuck in my way. I got nothing left in life, nothing left to say and I wonder why I’m always stuck in my way.

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OUTRO
I’m stuck, stuck in, stuck in my wayz. You can’t teach an old dog new tricks. I ain’t never gon’ change tonight, no I ain’t never gon’ change tonight cuz I’m always stuck in my way. I’m like a force I can’t name, I’m stuck in my wayz. Another day more of the same, I’m stuck in my wayz. It’s like I’m never gonna change, I’m stuck in my way. I’m the cause of my pain I’m stuck in my wayz. You ever get that feeling? That you done fucked up so hard for so long that ain’t no coming back? That’s where I live most of my life at. But don’t spend a lifetime trying to kill old habits. Just spend today trying to make one worth having.

VERSE 1
I’m living by the moment, running from myself to get away from this stranger. I’m dying by the moment, watching this life just slip away, through my fingers. I don’t know what it takes but I gotta see that everything that I am is what’s killing me. Kept alive by the Devil that’s inside of me, beating my heart so cold.

HOOK
These Devil’s Eyez only cry in black ink from their sorrow, but I’m in hell dead or alive, staring through this Devil’s gaze... living for the moment.

VERSE 2 (Sean P)
Yeah, I done learned a lesson, never leave the house without packing a Smith and Wesson, never ride a Harley with Colors and no blessing, these streets is a motherfucker and I promise they’ll leave you messy nigga. Yeah, I got a confession, I’m guilty than a motherfucker, you see how I’m dressing. Up and down the highway man the only time I’m stretching is when I make it home and still don’t sleep without a weapon nigga. Yeah, and I see that slipped your mind, cuz I’m gong through hell but never did I stop my grind. Yeah, tell em one more time. I’m going through hell but never did I stop my grind. Yeah, when it seems like I’m gonna fail just believe in ya patna, you know shawty keep a scale. Yeah, you know I’m gonna keep it real, one double O... I just need you to do this here.

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VERSE 3
It’s like I’m riding down a lifeline, black tears dripping down my face. Alone in the dark, alone in this hell I’ve made. Alone on this road I paved, full throttle to an lonely grave. Alone in the dark, alone in this hell and more and more I slip away praying my heart don’t cave to this Devil’s maze. It’s so cold, I can’t hold on and on and on until my fire dies. More and more I slip away praying my soul don’t fade to this Devil’s gaze. I’m so blind... until I blind these Devil’s Eyez.

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VERSE 1
Am I in God’s hands or God damned? Or is failure just part of God’s plan? I’ve done things even I don’t understand. They can write it on my grave, I’m a wicked wicked man, trying to stand in this hellfire head high, tell the Devil he’s a fucking liar. I can’t cry as I bleed under dark skies, trying to find resolution down the barrel of a 45. Why was I born in the first place? Such a waste, to give a man a talent for a dream he’ll never taste. I embrace what the Bible says, but in my head it’s hard telling myself I ain’t better off dead. I’m a madman, kicking rocks through the badlands, hugging a nickel plated 44 magnum. The last thing I dreamed of being was a bad man, but my plans ain’t pan now here I am. I’m walking through a tar pit with a target painted on my back, back to where I started... Watching the world throw stones again like I’m the only man ever to sin. I put it on my kids as my witness, I’m too far gone for forgiveness. So in the end what the point of repentance? Because the Devil and the world and the church ain’t letting me forget this!

HOOK
I’m walking down this lonely road of sin... I’m a Desperado.


VERSE 2
Am I in God’s hands or God damned? Or is failure part of being a man? Overcome by the sin of my hands, I’m on my knees praying maybe God still has a plan, for a lowlife doing wrong like I don’t know right. Stuck up in the middle of a Devil-God-Job fight. What’s black? What’s gray? What’s white? I can’t even tell no more but I know what it’s like to lose your wife and kids... everything that you love because everything that you loved wasn’t never enough. Cuz you took it for granted, couldn’t picture the day when everything you worked to build starts slipping away. Once the hurt that you’ve caused outweighs the hurt that you’ve done and you’re a shame as a father, a husband, a son. When you’re a shame as a believer, a shame as a man, when shame is all you really got left in your hands. When you battle your thoughts while the heart forsakes you, and you battle your mind while your family hates you. When you battle the Devil on the road he takes you and you battle with the Lord while He’s working to break you. My own kids as my witness, if I’m too far gone for forgiveness then in the end what’s the motherfucking difference between a sinner and the lost and a man that calls himself religious?

HOOK

OUTRO
I’m walking down this lonely road of sin... I’m a Desperado. I bet my soul on a bad hand, threw the dice to the wind, now I’m just another bad man payin’ heavy for my sins.

VERSE 1
I done been at the top looking down at the world where the sky stops, I done seen things happen up there that’ll make you never want the top. Sometimes I long for the bottom to remember where I’m from, instead of laying like a bullet in the barrel of a dead man’s gun. Cuz I been through hell and tasted heaven the same. Fortune and fame feel a lot like shackles and chains. There’s something so priceless in a simple man’s dreams, cuz this world ain’t all of the gold and all the silver it seems.

HOOK
I wanna get lost where no one knows my name. I wanna be free of the things I can’t change. I wanna get high and forget all my pain. I wanna dance in the middle of the storm walking on this Georgia Rain.

VERSE 2
I done been in the middle looking around at the world like a sweatshop, working 40 plus hours every week just trying to get the bills to stop. I’ve been told another man’s goal is worth chasing until my skin gets old, living for the weekend coming when the liquor starts running and I need another check to blow. Cuz I been through Monday and tasted Friday the same. Working for another man feel a lot like shackles and chains. But there’s something so priceless in a working man’s dreams, cuz this world ain’t all of the gold and all the silver it seems.

HOOK
I wanna get lost where no one knows my name. I wanna be free of the things I can’t change. I wanna get high and forget all my pain. I wanna dance in the middle of the storm walking on this Georgia Rain.

VERSE 3
I done been at the bottom looking up like everything that shines is gold, cuz I could use a little gold in my pockets when the world starts getting cold. I’m playing that Lotto tomorrow just praying that I might win, cuz I’m gonna buy a couple cars and a mansion then I’m gone just like the wind! I been on empty, had a full tank the same. Having nothing to your name feels a lot like shackles and chains. But there’s something so priceless in a hungry man’s dreams, cuz this world ain’t all of the gold and all the silver it seems!

VERSE 1
I remember that November, we was shaking off the winter. Black boots, Daisy Dukes had me feeling like a sinner. She was the finest little blonde thing, I’d ever seen. Hot like a 45 in a stolen ride that’s in your baby mama’s name. I ain’t really never thought about love like love could’ve knocked me off my feet, got blindsided, I can’t hide it, ride it like a desert breeze. And I could spell it but I ain’t even telling. I’m a bad boy, she’s a good girl looking for a good time. Bending curbs in the night, we ain’t telling nobody. Eying her curves, wrong or right she got a bad body! Taking her places that her daddy don’t know, put the pedal to the floor, drop the top and let it blow!

She’s singing with the radio up loud and I can’t get enough now. They said “boy you’ll never learn! You try to play with fire and you’re gonna get burned.” But I forgot what it was like to be in love now, and I can’t get enough now. Tomorrow’s none of my concern, I’m pouring gas on the fire cuz I love the way it burns.

HOOK
We were born to be wild when the sun drops, throwing wishes at the stars from the rooftops. Tomorrow ain’t going nowhere, tonight we’re still young, let’s live and forget life. Cuz baby we can party til the suns up, soaking in the moment until the fun’s up. Tomorrow gon’ still be there, tonight we’re still young, let’s live and forget life.

VERSE 2
I remember that December, feelings burning like an ember with the world around me crashing, got me stuck up in the center. Separated, just waiting in this craving I created. Every second, every minute, every moment I just hate it. It’s the feeling that somethings missing, my passion is like a prison, my body won’t even listen if you ain’t the one I’m kissing. I’d rather die than kiss it all goodbye, take my heart to the sky I just gotta feel it one more time. Bending curbs in the Chevy, we ain’t telling nobody, kissing her curves, hot and heavy I wanna touch your body. Take her places and she’s never been before, kick your boots to the floor, get lost and let it go!

She’s singing with the radio up loud and I can’t get enough now. They said “boy you’ll never learn! You try to play with fire and you’re gonna get burned.” But I forgot what it was like to be in love now, and I can’t get enough now. Tomorrow’s none of my concern, I’m pouring gas on the fire cuz I love the way it burns.

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BRIDGE
Girl, I was in love when I seen your face. Girl, I think you’re gonna be my favorite mistake. Girl, we’re living in the moment like tomorrow can’t wait. You got me trapped in your eyes rolling in the high. Got me dancing in the flames dumpin’ gas on the fire.

VERSE 3
I remember that September when my world changed forever. It wasn’t right, but ain’t feel wrong. I took the pain and put it in a song. Cuz I’ve been through all the hate and judgment, all the things I’ve lost, cried for my transgressions, laid them at the cross. The past is gone and can’t be undone. But now it’s you and me and nothing else and all I want is you to be my girl. Be my girl through everything in this crazy world. Let’s get old, let’s get gray. Let’s watch our days just slip away. Sitting on the front porch, staring up at the stars, watching the kids play around in the yard. With what’s left let’s have fun, cuz time has come and gone and now we ain’t so young but we can remember this life. Remember this life. Remember this life. Remember this life, Remember this life until it’s gone.

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HOOK
Another long walk through a short fire, walking praying I can make a deal with God. I can’t pray and dismiss the moment I kissed the Devil on the hand and poisoned these lips. If only I could make a deal with God.

VERSE 1
This life’s a long road through a short fire, it’s like I’m burning alive but I can’t seem to die. Sometimes I feel like my whole life’s a fucking lie, and I can’t bring myself to cry no matter how hard I try. I’ve been broken for so many years, pretending on the outside like I ain’t never known tears. Now this cage that I’ve created is the sum of my fears, cuz I ain’t never living up to how good I appear. So now I’m walking through these flames, pockets spilling with sin, throwing rocks at heaven’s gates begging, trying to get in. Feeling lost and abandoned, I ain’t got no friends. I’m so sick of living life Lord when will it end? Dear God, if You love me then why’d You leave me like this? Broke and hurting with these deeds I can’t never dismiss? But give me one last change and I promise You this! I’ll spend my last days untying these devilish kiss with these lips.

HOOK

VERSE 2
This life’s a long road to a longer fire if I can’t get this heart to bend before the day I die. Sometimes I feel like what I believe is just a fucking lie, and I can’t bring myself to pray no matter how hard I try. I’ve spent a lifetime broke on my knees, begging for strength to walk tall past the pain that I’ve seen. I never claimed to be perfect, just a slow growing seed but it only takes one mistake to erase a life of good deeds. There’s no such thing as forgiveness or love in this mess, only those that you’ve hurt and those you ain’t hurt yet. I’ve put my kids through hell that they’ll never forget and that’s the one thing in this life that I’ll forever regret. God forgive me, God love me, God bring me on back. Make me something to be proud of when my family looks back, cuz I done come too far to fail and die in my sins... but if that’s the only road to heaven then I’d do it again and make...

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VERSE 3
I’m a lost cause that’s what my mama said, holding onto hell until I’m finally dead. Killed by the stubbornness in my veins. I’m a lost cause that what the preacher said, throwing up prayers while I hang my head, hoping that somebody’s really listening to me. Cuz I walk alone in this fire, prayers outnumbered by trials and God feels like ten million miles away. This bullet ain’t enough to try to kill this love that You still got for me. Another long walk through a short fire, walking praying I can make a deal with God. I can’t pray and dismiss the moment I kissed the Devil on the hand and poisoned these lips. If only I could make a deal with God.

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VERSE 1
It all started back in 1994 bwoi,
a young kid growing up in a war bwoi.
Staring death in the eye toe to toe bwoi,
ducking bullets with my face to the floor bwoi.
I done been to the lowest you can go bwoi,
I lost everything in life but my soul bwoi.
That's why I'll never ever rap like a dope bwoi.
Survived killers with AKs and Grenades
in a rage at my door bwoi.
I started rapping because the pain was deep,
and I done seen too much bloodshed to sleep.
So I'm geeked to the peak with no words to speak,
and all I feel is defeat while I grind my teeth like...
"Somebody gotta bleed
on somebody's beat
Somebody might as well be me."
I took a number like I'm meant for the top
I'm ready to drop this spot
so hot they can't stop me.
Inevitable that when you pop
you got a world of friends.
Never thinking about the time that you be putting in.
Now the world and everybody
is wondering where you been,
but the truth is they just ain't been listening.
I'm a little bit of Pac, a little bit of Bone
A little bit of David in the Psalms writing songs.
A little Outkast, Johnny Cash and some Pastor,
call it Vice Versa, reverse the past.
My music is therapy to poison the pain
and every song like a piece of me, I ain't looking for fame.
I ain't never thought about selling my soul for this game
But I'm gonna spit so hard that it knows name is...

HOOK
My name is Crucifix!
My name is a daily reminder
the pain that's inside of me
keeps on dividing me
til I nail it to the Crucifix.

VERSE 2
I started for the love
of the music because it helped me.
I was born with struggle in my blood
and I know it's out to kill me.
Nineteen with a dream ain't gonna back down.
Writing raps on the toilet of a crack house.
Spitting verses at the cops while they pat down,
running by the moment
like I'm living in a freestyle.
It's I'm shooting every word that's said,
It's like I'm aiming at the stars
but inside I'm dead.
It's like I'm hanging onto nothing but the beats I'm fed.
Conversating with the roaches that share my bed.
I got nothing in this life but a mountain
of people thinking that I'll never make it
so they're doubting.
I've given so much that I been stopped counting.
I sold my only car just to print my first album. Ahhg.
Now that's a gamble when no one cares,
I put it all out on the table homie I ain't scared.
People talkin about, "This dude came from where?"
It's been decade since I dropped My Life's Prayer.
I'm like a little bit of Biggie, and a little bit of Nas.
A little Lyrnard Skynard with a little Goodie Mob.
A little Youngbloodz in the mud, smoking bud,
"If you don't give a damn, we don't give a fuck!"
My music is therapy to poison the pain
and every song is like a piece of me, ain't looking for fame.
I ain't never thought about selling my soul for this game.
But I'm gonna spit so hard that it knows name is...

HOOK

INTRO
Sometimes the first ones to judge you are gonna be the ones pretending that they love you. They wash their hands of you and say they’re praying for your purpose, but it takes the dirt to show the world what a real diamond’s worth is... Church!

HOOK
You don’t know my struggle or where I’ve been, or the hell that my mind feels if you ain’t stood in these shoes I’m walking in. It’s like I’m dancing in a mindfield. Losing myself in a world of pain, I got everybody saying I’m too bad to change. But you ain’t got a finger good enough to point out my sin... if you ain’t been down the roads I’ve been.

VERSE 1
I’ll be the first to put it on the table, my life, my heart, my mind ain’t all that stable. My heart is willing but my flesh feels so unable, but I believe that I’m more than a dirty label. I ain’t got no time for no games, I ain’t attracted to a life that’s looking so plain. I’m open about my struggles and you call it profane... whiskey, weed and women with a little bit of cocaine. The only difference between me and a world that talks is I ain’t been ashamed of the road I’ve walked. It’s cuz I’m knowing in the end that I’m only being built upon the roads that I’ve been. That’s Church!

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VERSE 2
It’s like I’m living out your taboos, but keep it real your closet’s looking pretty bad too. Cuz more than once you’ve probably walked inside my damn shoes, feeling like your past is permanent just like your tattoos. Sooner or later you’re gonna fall for what the world is saying and start believing that you’re lost and ain’t no point in praying. It’s like your hungry but a change just ain’t on the menu, thinking God ain’t listening cuz He’s just too disappointed in you. Cuz you done failed, you done fell, need rebooted up. You had the world inside your hands and you screwed it up. So put that lesson in your pocket, welcome to the club, cuz I been through what you been through and you been through what a few been too. It’s called Church!

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VERSE 3
I came through life scarred, battered, broken, outspoken about my dirt. I wear my sin out on my sleeve and I ain’t changing my shirt. I ain’t afraid to feel the breeze of a few hateful words to find the purpose in my pain and hope that lives in my hurt. I heard that this life’s all about what you look for, and the story ain’t done until the book closes. You can write this page where the good shows and leave the bad in the past where it should go. Think about the pain, don’t climb into bed with it. You can love the past just don’t have a kid with it. Live in every moment like the very last minute, life ain’t about the dirt but it is what you did with it. Church! If you ain’t been down that road then you can’t understand my soul. How you gonna judge me if you don’t know where I’ve been?

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VERSE 1
The truth is living in our eyes, it’s like we’re living separate lives. Cuz something happened on the way to heaven and now we hide behind our lies. We don’t even ever talk, through separate worlds we both walk. Cuz something happened on the way to heaven and now we’re running in the dark. I know you said forever, I know I said forever, I never thought I’d see the day that we’re not together but we’ve both been playing hands that we can’t hide.

HOOK
We got dreams and life, we got hopes and time, steady falling out of love while we’re livin’ in a house of cards. We got secrets and lies, we got pain behind our eyes, just pretendin‘ for the kids while everything falls apart.

VERSE 2
Never not once in my life did I wish that we’d end up in a place like this, where every single word is like a blade to the wrist, cutting us down, I’m beating walls with my fists. The truth is we ain’t never seeing eye to eye, we done been through way too much to hide and sooner or later all the weight of the past is like a house of cards just waiting to crash. I know I did you wrong I hate that. Ain’t nothing I can do to change that. You’re hurting and I know you want payback... I’m gonna take that knowing I deserve that. I guess love is like a freight train, hauling our mistakes and our past pain. There’s only so much hell you can ride through together before love derails.

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VERSE 3
I know you said forever, I know I said forever, I never thought I’d see the day that we’re not together but we’ve both been playing hands that we can’t hide. We got dreams and life, we got hopes and time, steady falling out of love while we’re livin’ in a house of cards. We got secrets and lies, we got pain behind our eyes, just pretendin’ for the kids while everything falls apart.

HOOK

VERSE 1 (Crucifix)
It’s all picture perfect until the love is gone and your world has been ripped in half. Cuz you don’t really know what’s going on behind the smiles in a photograph. I see you got married just the other day, Congratulations... is what I’m supposed to say. It felt a little soon to me, you throwing that bouquet but it’s all a memory now, whatever takes the pain away. Just know I cried too, thinking about the things that we both been through. You trying to hurt me, me trying to hurt you, I wanna Control-Z but I can’t undo all the pain and lies that broke us, in tiny doses. Tried our best but you and I were hopeless, just trading coldness like we’re both walking around in comas praying the other one would end it. This shit ain’t what we intended, I’m just so sick of pretending. Some days I’m sorry, some days I’m angry, some days I just don’t have the fucking patience to sit and argue with crazy and it’s crazy...

HOOK
It’s all picture perfect until the love is gone and your world has been ripped in half. Cuz you don’t really know what’s going on behind the smiles in a photograph. You can fake a smile for a photo and show the whole world your happy life. Try to drag your heart where it won’t go and still cry yourself to sleep at night. Sometimes a picture paints a thousand lies and it’s a picture that we hide behind. A snapshot on a moment you’ll remember for the pain trying to frame it as a happy life.

VERSE 2 (Hard Target)
It’s all out of focus, out of focus. Smile enough then pray that God will notice, God will notice. Find your moment a defining closing when you and I controlled it. Why are you and I opponents and you deny the notion? Well shit, I’ve tried to mend your older wounds, you fight when no one’s holding you. Your smile is just distracting the fact that you’re still emotional and nothing seems to set us straight. We need to go our separate ways. I know you’d like to sit and talk but I’ve got nothing left to say. I’m fucking done! I’m fucking done! Let’s see how deep our love would run, our love would run. You can tell the world your happy but behind that door you’ve come undone. You can try to filter out that pain but you know it’s only a cover-up. It seems there’s nothing gonna change about us, ain’t no other way around it. I just go insane around you, yet you still complain about it. Why are you still hanging on with your picture perfect life and the lies you use in the frame around it?

HOOK
It’s all picture perfect until the love is gone and your world has been ripped in half. Cuz you don’t really know what’s going on behind the smiles in a photograph. You can fake a smile for a photo and show the whole world your happy life. Try to drag your heart where it won’t go and still cry yourself to sleep at night. Sometimes a picture paints a thousand lies and it’s a picture that we hide behind. A snapshot on a moment you’ll remember for the pain trying to frame it as a happy life.

VERSE 1
In this life, everything you love could disappear in the blink of an eye... hold onto it while you got it. All I ever wanted was to be the greatest man in your life. That rugged knight in shinning armor on your darkest of nights. So when the world around you shatters and you’re lost in your fears and all your friends disappear you know your Daddy is here. I can still remember the tears on the day you were born, the nurses laid you in my arms and I sang you that song. You had heard it for nine months just never saw my face... you stopped crying and all the nurses cried in your place. You were My Breath baby, the air that I breathe. The only thing in this life to come out decent in me. The little angel that saved me from me and put me in check, so I tattooed it on my neck so I could never forget. I tried my best to be a father, every day was a fight cuz being a father ain’t something you learn overnight, so we learned it together. You grew and I grew. You were so innocent and I’d die before I let the world take it from you. I’d be your Superman when your world fell apart. That one man in your life that would never break your heart. That one man you could count on to do what was right... but it seems Superman done found his Kryptonite.

HOOK
All I ever wanted was to be the man of your dreams. Your greatest hero when the world inside you screams but I failed and there’s no words I could use to fix what I’ve broken so I write it in a letter to you. Vanessa this is my Letter to You.

VERSE 2
The second time around I figured there’d be less scars but from the beginning me and your mama felt that you wasn’t ours. So many nights on the couch I watched her cry so hard, like you were this little life that we were just borrowing from God. There was something so different about you, you could see it in your eyes. It was like He opened up your chest and put His heart inside. It wasn’t until you finally learned to pray that I understood... your whole life would be a battle between evil and good. You were this fragile piece of glass He held in His hands, He started showing you things that only you’ll understand. Visions of the face of Jesus, where we go when we die. You’d sit out in the grass for hours staring up at the sky. And I remember thinking “Jesus please hold this girl tight”, until you climbed into my arms crying that night. You said “Daddy, I ain’t never telling the kids at school, because I don’t want them to convince me that it wasn’t true. These things I’ve seen, I believe that they’re only for me cuz down the road is something hard where I’m gonna need to believe. You had the words of an Angel but just didn’t understand that what was coming would be the work of Daddy’s hands.

HOOK
All I ever wanted was to be the man of your dreams. Your greatest hero when the world inside you screams but I failed and there’s no words I could use to fix what I’ve broken so I write it in a letter to you. Amilia this is my Letter to You.

VERSE 3
From the moment you could walk all you did was run, like a little blonde bullet flying out of a gun. Your mind was faster than your feet and the shoes you were in. You’d hit that wall face first, get up and do it again. And once you hit that deep end and your heart was pounding, you knew that Daddy would be those arms to keep you from drowning. It’s the little things about you I cherish and save, that little scar beside your nose and your goodbye wave. Them little notes you put in my bag when I leave out for tour, the way you set out your school clothes all over the floor. My little genius, go get it girl, the world is yours. But as for me, I wanted to give you so much more. One thing I never wanted was being a dad from a distance, where all the sudden you grow up, I turn around and I missed it. Where so much time has passed, you’ve forgot who I am. When it’s you walking down the isle but it ain’t me holding your hand. I know the blame is all mine but the pain is yours. Just keep reading your Bible
just keep doing your chores. Keep praying, keep believing, keep trusting the Lord and I promise one day baby girl you’ll see our family restored!

HOOK
All I ever wanted was to be the man of your dreams. Your greatest hero when the world inside you screams but I failed and there’s no words I could use to fix what I’ve broken so I write it in a letter to you. Malaika this is my Letter to You.

VERSE 1
Hungover Sunday morning in a church pew, smelling like cigarettes and hard booze. And every word of the sermon feels like it was written just for me. So ashamed I don’t want nobody to see. The pastor looking right into my dead soul, I swear to God it feels like he already knows. I look around the room and so does everybody else, so I step out the church door right back into hell.

HOOK
Once again this world is breaking me. It’s got me wondering where my sin has taken me. Cuz I did things this week even I just can’t believe, on the flip my religion has forsaken me.

VERSE 2
I got a couple women in my past life, a couple women from last night and now I’m tiptoeing around all the lies that I can’t hide, trying to figure out how I’m gonna tell my wife. I come home, ain’t nothing in my world the same. Different faces in every single picture frame. Divorce papers on the nightstand and my bags right by the door. This war zone ain’t my happy home no more.

HOOK
Once again this world is breaking me. It’s got me wondering where my sin has taken me. Cuz I did things last night even I just can’t believe, on the flip my family has forsaken me.

VERSE 3
Cocaine on a tour bus somewhere outside of Las Vegas. Another night, another city. All the blinking lights are so pretty, ain’t nothing but a dark desert on the other side. My friends don’t like my personal decisions, they don’t wanna be nowhere around the way I’m living. Ain’t no helping hand, they don’t understand. Not a thought, not a prayer, they don’t give a damn. So I’m left trying to put all the pieces back together alone.

HOOK
Once again this world is breaking me. It’s got me wondering where my sin has taken me. Cuz I’ve done things today even I just can’t believe, on the flip my friends have forsaken me.

OUTRO
So I wonder what hope looks like... cuz ain’t no forgiveness in this life. I got sin upon sin upon sin on my mind, praying that these scars will fade in time. God I hope they fade. Praying that these scars are gonna fade in time. I’m so done with this world just breaking me, cuz it don’t matter where my sin has taken me. If there’s one thing left in this life that I believe... it’s that God never once has forsaken me.

POETRY (Big Rube)
Mankind... destined for greatness, achieved through tempering of the mind, body and spirit. Doomed to failure, as long as our indifferences overshadow the strength of our common bonds. Yet disease, war and poverty have become so common, many of us can barely be bothered to be indifferent. But know that all people on this earth are connected, each soul a glimmering light in a universe filled with darkness. It's said that we were born to hold dominion over all that we survey, through intelligence, wisdom and benevolence. But up until now we've become the epitome of the term "Epic Fail". We've taken the greatest gift ever known... Thought. And transformed paradise into a septic hell. Our Acid Reign has poisoned our food and water... even our air. We teach the children the same madness, so we've poisoned our heir. Both physically and mentally, we cripple what was meant to have limitless potential. Because without wisdom, knowledge doesn't see what's essential... Yet it's not too late.

VERSE 1
It's a hard knock life... bite you once, it's gon' bite you twice. But mentally the release is nice... Write down all my thoughts while the beats suffice. For one time, I ain't gotta search for words, or strain my brain, bending up my mind like curbs. I get lost in the music and never come back. From the pain to the brain, to the pen, to the track... Looking back, wondering why I did that... and this and this here... but this and that's passed to the past. Ridin' with my folk up in the Lac, got the coke up in the stash and a pistol on the dash about to crash. Swervin' while the pigs roll past, about plastered, cotton mouth from the grass. Sittin' high like a birdie on a wire from the cradle to the gutter to the grave to the fire... On fire. I'm lost in my circumstance. I've forgot how to feel... Sometimes I wish that I could just disappear.

HOOK
I'm stuck in this hell, I don't know where to go. Life is a pain that I don't want to know. My mind is my cell and I ain't seeing parole. Sometimes I wish I was invisible. Wish... wish... I was invisible.

VERSE 2
We're like fiends, chasing a pipe down pipe dreams. Justifying the end to keep means, when it's the means that's poison to your dreams. But we ain't trying to hear that though, put the poison to your lips breathe nice and slow... Until we're burned out, turned to powder, then a couple years later ain't no coming up out of it. But I'm sick of living for what's gonna kill me. I'd rather have the whole world love me than fear me. I keep it 100 even if you don't hear me. I came to speak truth, I ain't in it for the penny. Hated by many... fuel for the fire. I keep my eyes high like a birdie on a wire... You wanna navigate the path to life falling apart? From the eyes to the to the mind, to the hands, to the heart, to the dark... I'm lost in my circumstance. I've forgot how to feel... Sometimes I wish that I could just disappear.

HOOK

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One drink and I slip into party mode. Two drinks and I'm ready for two more. Four drinks and I'm ready to let it go tonight... It's the last before the last one. Five drinks and I ain't trying to leave the club. Six drinks and I'm ready to fall in love. Seven drinks, I ain't even had enough tonight... But this last one's the last one.

BRIDGE
It's the next temptation. It's the last before the last one. The next temptation. I ain't gonna lie, I love the feeling... catch a buzz, put my hands up at the ceiling, and dance shawty dance, dance shawty dance, dance shawty dance!

VERSE 1
Everything's like a dream, about to let loose like a high school teen. Bust up out the crib straight smellin' like green, lookin' like a star, so fresh so clean. I'm talkin' about cologne Armani, clothes Armani... I step up in the club and the gurls all on me. I'm running through the VIP deep like the army, like trash this club! I'll bring my own party. I'm ready to rip it up at the door, get a couple drinks then hit the dance floor. It only takes one just to put me in the mode, then how many more? Don't nobody know... So Rock! I'm unstoppable, swag like this ain't possible.

HOOK
I've never seen life as nothing but a ball and chain.
I'm stuck up in my silence, sleeping in the pouring rain.
I've never seen life as nothing but a stage for pain.
Cuz once you give and life never gives back,
even the hardest of men's hearts fade to black...
Once they dance with life.

VERSE 1
The mind is such a battlefield,
sometimes I wonder if it's even real.
How could anybody suffer like this?
Inside I've been dead for so long,
broken down, praying to keep me holding on.
But knowing it will never change.
But I can't even cry anymore when the fire is blowing around my eyes.
And I learn how to fly in the moment the pain is mowing through my mind.
Like I've never seen life...

HOOK

VERSE 2
I done been through hell on the back of a child's eye,
and I done seen enough bloodshed to last a lifetime.
Call me crazy but there's some things in life I'd die to not remember.
The past is no pretender, it's colder than the winter and lingers like December.
Cuz who would cry if I died tonight? (Ain't nobody crying tonight)
It's just me against the world as I dance with life.

HOOK

VERSE 3
Lookin' back on life this calloused heart just fades to black,
and I can't but wonder how I got this far my mind in tact.
Cuz every breath I breathe is life just falling through the cracks,
I've been given so many memories that I wish I could give back.
But giving back is more than pretending you're gonna right your wrongs.
Pour your heart out on paper, write it down in a couple songs.
Then go right back to steady chasing down this life of sin...
Ok I admit it. I deserve this hell I'm in.
I made my bed and now I'm sleeping in the pouring rain.
The wages of sin is death and death is the bride of pain.
And pain's the reason I hate breathing screaming "Jesus Christ!"
But it's this life that's got me wishing I had never seen life...

HOOK

VERSE 1
My dear friends, Romans, countrymen. Let me get your eardrums and the mind's inside the head they're in. Everything in life moves in cycles like the passing seasons, so there's never nothing new under the God made sun just for that very reason. So take that word, cuz what you heard is worth a thousand words. You can put it in your mind's back door then blow that dro slow, let it churn. Like the world can't crash and burn... Like it's never gonna be our turn... Talkin' about giving a whole new meaning to the old school phrase "You live, you learn". Cuz we keep living like we're in control. Like it's a given that it can't explode... Heads high like the day before the fall of Rome.

HOOK
Empires rise. Empires fall. There's division inside of these walls. I'm dressed for the ball and I'm ready for the fall of Rome. Cuz kings thrive and kings die. Ain't no escaping the circle of life, I'm praying for the best but I'm waiting for the fall of Rome.

VERSE 2
Open up your brain homez, this shit's no mystery... Man stays so obsessed to progress, always thinking he's above his history. Like a fly in the worldwide web, spoon-fed by our technology... keep it real cuz, you don't even know nobody that could make it in the 19th century. So what happens when circuit breaks and worlds collide with lightening forces? We gotta go back to riding horses and trade in cash for natural resources... No GPS, you gotta look to the stars, but you don't even know where the north stars are... Looking back on the fact we done got so far, keeps reminding me we could never find our start. Cuz we're so stubborn, thinking we're in control, like a government ain't fallen before... Heads high like the day before the fall of Rome.

HOOK

VERSE 3
Like a walk along wire in a royal stance, just a foot behind a vagabond that wants to dance... you know you're both going down in the end. Like a bullet down the barrel of tomorrow's gun, history shows there's nothing new under the setting sun. Sooner or later it's gonna go down again. But we're so happy thinking we're in control, like the world that we know ain't never gon' fold... Heads high like the day before the fall of Rome.

HOOK

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She's got the body of an angel, but she moves it like the devil in disguise, I can see it in her eyes. Nothing ahead of her but danger, behind her dead men lie... But the legs of the Devil in the front of a Chevy got me hypnotized.

VERSE 1
I'm walking down a dirt road with nowhere in the world to go, just letting my feet carry me wherever the wind may blow. Got a guitar over my shoulder, a pistol in my holster. I'm just an outlaw running. Running for wanting something but I still got nothing now. Then through the grain of the desert dust I see the gleam of a pickup truck, heading straight in my direction like a bullet down the barrel of a 357 now. This señorita in the front seat stops dead right in front of me, then she rolls down the window and says "Jump in cuz I'm going where the wind blows."

HOOK

VERSE 2
We pull up in the barrio, gunshots ring in stereo, and as I glance in the rear view a gang of thieves step out of the shadows into clear view. Then through the rays of the setting sun I drag my fingers to a loaded gun, and as I kick open the Chevy door I grab the Devil by the hand and let the .45 blow. We make a run down the nearest street while bullets barrel through the desert breeze... Shots ricocheting at my feet, everything about this woman goes against my instincts. But one shot not missing me is the Devil as she kisses me. She says, "I live for the action"... I'm caught up with the Devil in a fatal attraction.

VERSE 3
We run up in a hotel, two doors down from hell and the Devil's standing there, looking about as fine as an angel. As she starts to caress me, slowly undress me... I turn around and now the Devil got the gun on me. With a bullet in the head she's done and gone. One bullet in the head, she'd done and gone. Just a bullet in the head, she's done and gone because the Devil brings death until she's done and gone. With a bullet in the head I'm dead and gone. One bullet in the head and I'm dead and gone. A bullet in the head, I'm dead and gone because the Devil brings death until we're dead and gone.
She's got the body of an angel, but she moves it like the devil in disguise, I can see it in her eyes. Nothing ahead of her but danger, behind her dead men lie... But the legs of the Devil in the front of a Chevy got me hypnotized.

VERSE 1
Death crawls through the dark streets in silent flight, unsuspected while the world sleeps on an April night. Like an unseen enemy reaching out for the kill, once again writing history by our own free will. Like a virus in a dead land slowly eating away life, chasing the vision of a blind man in a world without sight.

HOOK
We’re sleeping in the dirt of Chernobyl still tonight. Forgotten where we’re from, lost in where we’ve come. We’re sleeping in the dirt of Chernobyl still tonight. Dying from inside, poisoned by our pride.

VERSE 2
Create a monster we can never tame... the ambition of fallen man. Engineer your grandchild’s pain for castles in the sand. Become our own worst enemy while time stands still, once again repeating history by our own free will. What’s left is a ghost town, block homes like tombstones. The dead memory of a showdown that tomorrow won’t know.

HOOK

BRIDGE
Looking down in the eyes of Heaven, it’s pride set on fire. If we could see it through the eyes of Heaven... just pride set on fire.

HOOK

HOOK (Crucifix)
My world is fall-n-apart, it's got me wondering why is this life so hard? You can catch me in the club or in the bar like "Hey!" Trying to dance the pain away.

VERSE 1 (Sean P)
I done been through so much pain, went out there and bought me a chain... Went out there and made it rain but it still didn't mean one mothafucking thang. But the times I felt my best, I was high, I was drunk like "Yes!" I was gone in the zone all alone on the dance floor by my gotdamn self. Only I can feel my pain, only I can make this change. Music feeds my soul, the drums they beat my brain. These streets they know my name, these streets they know my voice. Gotta get my fam up out these streets, I have no other choice.

BRIDGE (Crucifix)
I'ma lose myself in the pain tonight. I'ma dance it away until the morning light.
My world is fall-n-apart, it's got me wondering why is this life so hard? You can catch me in the club or in the bar like "Hey!" Trying to dance the pain away.

HOOK
I don't want to live forever, I think I had enough the first time around. I can't say that I don't wonder what forever would be like, but I don't want to live forever... if forever's like life.

VERSE 1
I'm walking in a dead society, the whole world's swinging on a broken thread. And I can see it in the eyes of every man that walks by me... this ain't the way they planned it, they're trying so hard to understand it. Broken dreams and broken bones, a world of kings without a throne. I see a homeless man sleeping outside of a foreclosed home... just trying to understand it cuz this ain't the way we planned it.

HOOK

VERSE 2
I'm walking with this debt inside of me, my whole world's swinging on a broken thread. And I can see it in the mirror every time that I look inside me... this ain't the way I planned it, I'm trying so hard to understand it. Broken dreams and broken homes, a daddy leaves his kids alone. I put them on the back burner for something I could never own. But why can't I understand that, this ain't the way God planned it.

HOOK

HOOK
Pour that drink up in my cup,
and homeboy turn that music up.
Let's sit back and enjoy this day
like today's the last.
No I ain't got too much money,
but what I got you can't take from me
I got family, faith and
I still got me some breath to breathe...
Boy life is good!

VERSE 1 (Crucifix)
Sometimes I just get caught up,
Quick to forgetting the way that I was brought up.
Running around town pissed, fists balled up.
Remembering everything but what my mama taught us.
In a world so cold, pave your own path or walk a beat road.
Try to get money but don't let it be your goal.
You can gain the whole world and still lose your own soul.
I'd rather be poor, and learn to love the way that feels.
Than rob and steal to make my meals and pay my bills.
God I'm really trying to understand
that the pain is just the frame to show the man that I am.
I'm gon' wake up in the morning knowing life gon' be hard.
But that's another reason just to keep on talking to God.
And it's a bet, I come out a little bit scarred.
But I can wake up in the morning and know which side that I'm on.

HOOK

VERSE 2 (Bubba Sparxxx)
In any event I'm plenty content.
Of my sins I repent, then give me the rent,
and try to give it my best then give Him the rest.
I was losing with more... been winning with less.
I need to reevaluate what more is, is it more bullshit?
Or is it more really more about more closeness with the Big Man?
Hey I'm a big fan, and I can withstand, I can endure...
I can persevere because I'm ensured
by faith and that leaves no room for
fear no more... Turn the music up!

HOOK

VERSE 3 (Skinny Deville)
It could be better if I tried harder.
My caddy's in the shop I guess I gotta ride the Marta.
But I thank God I'm alive, that's what I do for starters.
God will provide so I grind for my sons and daughter.
My house is under water swimming in a sea of debt,
but my faith is strong and Lord knows I need some help.
But every cloud has a silver lining so don't forget,
what goes down must come up now to catch a breath.

(Big V)
Mama keeps praying, the world don't stop spinnin'...
What makes a loser lose? What makes a winner win?
Win or lose, learn young or forever be a damn fool.
Fail and quit, that's what the weak do.
I'm a fighter y'all, morning, noon and night.
Tito Ortiz, Mike Tyson, Kimbo Slice...
Life gives me lemons, I'm gon' make pie,
then I can use the peeling to make the stars rise!

(Fish Scales)
Milledgeville bound... I love a small town
you ain't gotta have money, they're just glad you're around.
I could've been a lot of places but I'm out here free.
The best things in life come without no fee.
The few people that ain't here truly will be missed,
pour a shot to the ground before I take my sip.
It's been a long road, a lot of hardship.
But I'm glad for the ride so regardless... Life Is Good!

VERSE 1
Footsteps in the dust of a wasteland trailing back to a prison I'd rather leave a memory... a thought of yesterday. Then raindrops like bullets in a black sky start falling, slowly breaking away the mess I've made. Wash away my yesterday.

HOOK
I can feel this rain down the back of my body, falling hard, every drop is just like a brick that's breaking me. Washing away my yesterday. As the water gets high I can see it in the black sky, it's gonna take a flood to wash away the mess I've made. But if that's what it's gotta take... then Lord bring the rain.

VERSE 2
I can't tell between the rain and my teardrops, drowning me slow until I finally let it go. Let the water take my soul. Then suddenly I'm on my knees realizing, if drowning means I'm breathing for the very first time, I welcome the pain... I'm begging for the rain!

HOOK

VERSE 1 (Crucifix)
I done been through hell and I felt the pain.
I done seen the whole world go through a whole lot of change.
I seen a mama watch her baby die, just for gettin' high...
Then twenty minutes later, go get high.
I seen killers get justified, and all the while,
scratchin' my head, wonderin' how is it right?
I seen some real good people die in the crossfire,
of some men afraid of losin' their pride.
It's pain in the burbs... and pain in the streets.
It's a war on the church... and war in the east.
So listen... half of us thirst, while half of us feast.
Steady chasin' this Hollywood peace.

HOOK
I seen so many cry, I seen so many die over nothin' at all.
Giving their life up for something so small.
I seen so many tears over so many years we can never get back...
This ain't life if we're livin' in a past that's Sidewayz.

VERSE 2 (Sean P East)
I lost my patna Reece, and ever since that day
life's been crazy man, I really ain't had too much to say.
Sometimes I want revenge, but that's the Devil's way
of actin' out, so I just get down on my knees and pray.
I ask Him lead the way, but if it gets no better,
just know I tried... consider this my last letter.
To my fans, to my friends, to my family.
When I leave this earth, I hope ya'll all remember me.
RIP shawty Quint. Rest in peace Preacha Man.
I'm gon' hold it down, but swear to God I miss you man.
RIP Yoowah, we miss you Franco.
Freaky Tee, he took it hard... I feel his pain though.

HOOK

VERSE 3 (Crucifix)
There's got to be hope in my future, cuz there's pain in my past.
But I always been a believer, that the sufferin' can't last.
Cuz the rain comes down... the flood gets high.
But sooner or later something is gon' have to shine.
If we stop walkin' Sidewayz.
This life gon' fade like the wind blows,
but homie I know where I'm about to go...
Down that golden highway! Leavin' behind this pain that I've seen!

HOOK

HOOK
You can break these bonez but what I believe in... is a world I'd die to see. You can break these bonez but what I am seeing... is a world I can't believe.

VERSE 1
I'm losing my way... tomorrow's today. I breathe with this broken heart, just trying to chase a life that just slips away. I'm losing my passion, one day at a time, trying to understand this world that I'm seeing as it falls between the lines.

HOOK

VERSE 2
You can see it in my eyes I'm halfway gone, trying to navigate through a world of lies. And everybody's trying to figure out which planet I'm on, somewhere stuck in between myself and the city sky. If I can't get these memories out of my head, why not hold them to the flame then just sit back, go on and get high. Cuz the truth is, I never came down... It's a hard life and all that I've found is there's gotta be a little bit of sunshine after the pouring rain.

HOOK

VERSE 1
You can see it in the eyes of a dying man... It's like there's something there he can't comprehend. Call it fear or uncertainty, there's always this lingering question about eternity. Can't help but think about... where am I going when it's said and done? Or is there anything after life under the sun? So I slip away in my thoughts, I think about my rights and my wrongs and I realize this life is just a breath. Cuz time is shorter than I know but somewhere deep inside I just can't wait to go...

HOOK
I'll lift this veil from my eyes and I'll fly away... I've waited all of my life for this day. When I step my dirty feet through the pearly gates, and I finally see my best Friend face to face... I'm in Heaven.

VERSE 2
I start walking down the streets of gold, in a moment surrounded by everyone I've ever known... I can't help but notice there's a perfect smile on every face, shouts of joy that call my name... overwhelmed by a peace that I can't describe. So I slip away in my thoughts, I think about the world that I lost and I realize the world that lays ahead... There's no more crying, no more pain, no more death or suffering cuz all my sin and all my shame has finally passed away.

HOOK

The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no man but God. Until the day I return to the dust from which I came, I'll be forever marked by the cross that saved me. I am Cruce Signati.

VERSE 1
Welcome to the darkness where nobody don't know your name... These streets are so cold I can feel it in my veins. Welcome to the darkness where nobody don't feel your pain... Every non believer wanna tell me that I'm never gonna be nothing, but it's all the same. I keep thinkin' about the purpose of the pain... Is it for the fame? Is it for the game? Us selling our souls for pocket change? Choppin' up these rocks and things, knowin' in the end that we're not gon' change. So a young man going through things gotta prove things... them things become his chains with nothing left to blame, sittin' on a never ending life of shame. Shame! I don't like to think about it... What's the point of faith if my heart's gonna doubt it? You can see it in my face, I don't speak until I'm about it... there's things I can't erase in my past I ain't proud of... But it's hard to step up out of it when out of it means you done stepped out the furnace and all that's left behind is get murdered or clap burners. Trade living for nothing with dying for purpose and it'll take a lot more than prison walls and pistols to hurt us. Hurtin' deep inside I'm a slave to mind's eye, running while I'm blind by everything that shines. I burn it until I'm dead high... living like I can't die. Yet never catch the signs, things are destined to decline. Everything seems hopeless, so focused on another man to tell us where the hope is. So we follow these preachers and politicians with their 'hocus-pocus'. Never think about the signs of the End Times, so we stand blind while the day approaches... Waiting for the Eighth Beast Empire to start this, and mark us...

HOOK
Welcome to the Darkness... at the back door. Open up the eyes to your mind and your soul. Welcome to the Darkness... forget about what you know. The world's about to change, so get ready for the show. Welcome to the Darkness... it's time, won't you get it through your mind while everything is fine. Things are destined to decline. All the signs of the times point to the End Times... things are destined to decline.

VERSE 2
"Peace"... "Peace"... "Peace" in the Middle East... About as far-fetched as peace, peace on America's streets. Ain't gon' be no peace until the Beast proclaiming "Peace" meets the Prince of Peace during the 70th Week! Whether you're a degenerate pastor or spiritual bastard, or just a faithful, solid Christian anticipating the rapture. Until we lay our sin down at the foot of our Master, you can expect a steady rise in natural disasters!!!

HOOK (Khujo Goodie)
I'm just an Animal... My world is a zoo, I don't like me and I don't like you. No human emotion, no tellin' what I'll do. You better kill me before I kill you. I'm just an Animal... Yeah, a product of the streets, I don't eat, I don't sleep until I geek geek... blame it on society for creating a beast that don't give a damn about nobody. I'm just an Animal...

VERSE 1 (Crucifix)
Since I left the womb I was bathed in hate and my hate consumed my faith. And now my fate can't escape the pleasure of puttin' a bullet through the front of dirty south punk ass kid. I never believed in what I could see 'cause what I could see I never believed, never thinking the world would be giving me the living dream to be a beast. I know I got the will to teach if I go above and beyond these streets. Because I know I ain't scared to go when a man who wants nothing is invincible. I got the word of God planted on my lips, I'm ready to die and I ain't takin' no sh** . I never knew life would be like this, so until I'm gone I'm just, I'm just, I'm just an Animal...

HOOK

VERSE 2 (T-Mo Goodie)
I'm sick and tired of seein' my people on dope but there is hope... My brothers and sisters, find yourself, find your purpose and let God work us. He can help you if you let Him, shawty on some real sh** , something you can feel sh** , keep it on the trill sh** ... I never tried the sh** . No powder sh** , I don't want it. Strictly business, bear my witness. Discombobilated paper... I done made it. My sh** got raided, didn't violate then that sh** there sank in. Busted out my window, it wasn't on film though but it was a blessing that I didn't catch them folk... the 45 would smoke.

HOOK
BRIDGE (Crucifix)
I'm hurting feeling like nobody cares, my pride is broken... Oh my Lord. But all this hate has left it's scars on me and calloused every piece of my soul, until there's nothing left.

VERSE 3 (Khujo Goodie)
So they label me an "Animal" but who's the blood thirsty cannibals? Born three-fifths of a human, damn your flag, damn your constitution. Drug abuser, ten time loser... I don't discriminate, don't b;link I'll do ya! Snake n*** from the bottom of the barrel, sometimes I think about lookin' down the barrel and pulling the trigger, another dead n*** that couldn't cope with the arrows of society. I'm tired of you lying to me, stop saying you love me, where's the help you promised me? Years ago? Oh I forgot, I'm just an Animal... untamed, uncaged with fire in his cotton pickin' veins…

HOOK

HOOK
Do you believe that God gives second chances,
when pain beats the rhythm and Lucifer dances?
I ain't ready for hell, but I'll take my chances,
praying God will forgive under the circumstances.
I'm sick of livin' life... sick of wastin' time...
What's the point of tryin'? What's the point of cryin'?
Aim the 45 dead between my eyes
and pull that burner trigger cuz a bullet never lies.

VERSE 1
Sweat drips from the top of my face,
my mind focused, eyes locked in blank space.
My thoughts heavy like a thousand tons,
heart beatin' like the sound of a thousand drums.
I put my head back and look at the sky,
take a minute and wonder what it feels like to die.
If it's pain I face then pain I embrace,
knowin' this will be the last decision I ever make.
And I ain't lookin' for no pitty.
It's been me against the world since I left my mama's titty.
Why keep waitin' for the Reaper to come and get me?
I'll end it right now cuz life's so shitty!
Ain't gon' be no sunrise tomorrow...
One bullet in a six shot revolver...
Lookin' down a dark barrel to the gates of hell... I ask myself.

HOOK

VERSE 2
Hmmm, that's a real good question
with an answer about as far away as heaven.
Cuz really if God had a purpose,
then He could stop this damn bullet before my cranium splits.
I load the gun with a 45 shell with a hollow head
to make sure I blow my face through the back of my head.
I spin it once for my friends... once for my foes...
Take a breath, shut my eyes and slap the cylinder closed.
I put the tip of the barrel under the tip of my chin,
cock back the hammer and take a moment to repent for my sins.
Then put my finger on the trigger and pull it!
Once... twice... three times... still feelin' no bullet!
Forth time... click. Fifth time... click.
What the hell is goin' on? Ain't this some bullshit!
"God if you're tryin' to prove a point then this is it!"
The last shot. I pull the trigger, then... click.

HOOK

VERSE 3
I can't believe it, what's the chance of a misfire?
Did God come down from heaven to stop this bullet before I died?
Knowin' I would kill myself before I would kill my pride,
and it would take an act of God to make me appreciate my life.
I take a minute to marinate on the though at hand...
What's my life in the scope of things? I don't understand?
Constantly stuck between the man I was, and who I am.
God, You're the one that stopped this bullet... I hope you're listenin'!
Why would you want me here to live in all this hatefulness?
"I'm less concerned for your comfort than your faithfulness."
But how can I be faithful when things don't progress?
"It's not what you do, but who you are that determines your success."
But what about when it's who I am that causes me to sin,
and after your forgiveness I've failed you again?
"My Child, if you doubt Me, remember what you've witnessed and ask yourself this…"

HOOK

VERSE 1 (Crucifix)
I fade away from life... walkin' through the danger zone.
Down 2 die, my last prayer spoken,
I'm a product of the gutter... just a dead man walkin'.
I run these streets at night, I can sleep when I'm dead and gone.
Down 2 die, I'm sick of bein' broken,
ain't no promise for tomorrow tell me what the point of hopin'?
I ain't never had nothin' but a dirty burner, and a little bit of bud tonight.
Down 2 die, if the pain don't kill me
I'm gon' clap black choppers 'til the whole block hear me cuz.
I'm just another life sittin' on the edge of murder,
so I live it like I'm down 2 die.
Down 2 die, I'm sick of bein' empty,
I lay my soul to my city 'til Jesus come get me!

HOOK
Fade away... Oh Lord, knowin' I could die tonight.
All I say... is "so long", then end it like I'm down 2 die.

VERSE 2 (Sean P)
F*** it, I'm outlaw shawty
ridin' on a Harley just me and my Glock 40.
Late night, dressed in all black, I'm a gangsta.
Suicide shiftin', apes, I sense anger.
But f*** it, I'm livin' like I'm dyin' tonight.
Con' liquor got me gone, man my mind ain't right.
All my patnaz, they some killaz, we a two-wheel gang.
Real untamed guerillas will bust that thang.
Thangz don't change, n*** we inherit the beef,
and I'm a soldier so I go and cook a steak for the chief.
In a ski mask in a dumpster, I ain't playin' no games
earnin' my stripes, crossin' out you b*** n*** z names.
The danger zone, I know that I'm playin' it wrong
but go to sleep in these streets and that ass is gone.
With all my might, the Lawd just restored my right,
so I'm ridin' on you n*** z like I'm dyin' tonight.

HOOK

VERSE 3 (Crucifix)
Livin' on the edge, playin' in the dark... Ridin' like I'm down 2 die.
The devil's in my head, beggin' for heart... Knowin' I could go tonight.
Tell me what is life, if death is creepin'?
Waitin' around the corner to call my name?
In the air tonight, death is speakin'...
Sayin' "pack your soul, cuz it's time to go!"
That's just how it goes in the danger zone.

Here you can place an explanation or answer to the question.

HOOK (Crucifix)
I've been through some tough times but never asked for a dime. As sure as the sun shines I'm gonna try and get mine. Everyday I'm on the grind like I'm running out of time. If you wanna get me that's fine... just step yo ass to the back of the line.

VERSE 1 (Khujo Goodie)
I'm gonna get mine, front or the back of the line. Rain, snow, sleet or shine... skinny nicks, fat dimes. Living that life of crime, duckin' and dodgin' swine, everyday on the grind. The blind leading the blind... Baby mama's crying, politicians lyin', h*** hollerin' "PEACE!" But missiles still flyin'. Goin' through some tough times, Lord knows I'm tryin', starin' at that Mac-90 and that Glock 9. Better on some potent pine, writin' on some potent rhymes. Bloodsuckas wanna get me well then that's fine. Stand in line, take a number, wait your turn. It's gonna be a dawg fight... when will them bastards learn? I guess they never will until their blood spills. I wish I could pop a pill to make it disappear. But that ain't real bruh, wake up and smell the coffee, before your ass end up in a pine coffin.

HOOK

VERSE (Mr. Red Eyez)
Born dyin', raised feimin'... seeing nightmares when I was daydreaming. It's hard to believe in God in a world that raises demons, this life is contagious and deadly like the AIDS semen. I'm just misunderstood, they just don't understand... A convicted felon in this life dyin' from his hunger pains... I ain't got no time for runnin' games, my girl keep prayin' I'm gonna change, I'm smokin' blunts back to back to kill these thoughts in my brain. I done lost it all... lost my mama, lost my dawgs... Seein' my whole world around me dyin' like a holocaust, but still tryin' to walk the walk in the worst predicaments. On the block remembering chapter 10, verse 13 in the first Corinthians.

HOOK

VERSE 3 (Crucifix)
I can't see the wind but it's moving... I might not see the things God is doing... But that don't mean that He ain't in control. I got 40 days and 40 nights of flooding before I touch that rainbow sittin' at the end of the line.

Sometimes I wonder why heaven just seems so quiet. Why I can't get down on my knees and bleed this selfish pride. Why I can't set aside this stubborness inside, cuz every time I failed in life is every time I tried. I'm just so sick and tired feeding this empty feeling, everyday I'm praying, prayers are bouncing off the bedroom ceiling. God are you up there listenin'? Or just watchin' me suffer? Cuz it's just me against this world that wanna take me under! Starin' at that AK... that carbine... Bloodsuckas wanna get me well then that's fine! These desperate times transform the mind, it don't take but a starvin' kid to convert a man of faith to a man of crime. So I twist that pine, snort that line... a couple more time and everything will be fine. Everybody wanna be the one to pull the trigger thinkin' takin' my life is gonna take my shine. I'd rather be a blind man, than a man without a vision. For me homie, death is nothin' but a door to living!

HOOK
I am the Dreamer and I say, "I'm dreamin' 'til I'm dead and gone!"
Cuz life is like a breath that fades upon an hourly stage.
I am a Dreamer, and I take my pain and put it in another song.
You can go on and let your dreams die...
But I ain't stoppin' 'til mine gets justified!

VERSE 1
Wish I could count on one hand how many heartaches
in a lifetime I could find from these dirty snakes.
The world may never feel me, as I present the real me
but stoppin' is not an option until they pop me and they kill me.
You gon' hear me in your thoughts while I got a voice to sing...
The icon of a dream like Martin Luther King.
As long as I breathe the devil is gonna tempt me,
but I'd rather die tempted than to live this life empty. Seal it.
Cuz for the moment haterz are gon' try, but Dreamers don't die.
We leave a legacy to speak in our place,
long after we go down to the grave.
But I dream, though it seems...
Everyday it's just me against everything.
Trials are gon' rise until I rise with the King
but I know what it means to defeat their sting.
You can tell me that I'm never gonna be nothing
but I'm lovin' every minute cuz I know I'm destined to dream!

HOOK

VERSE 2
I've been through hell and back... and hell ain't what I'm plannin' for.
I over-stand the pain... but still don't understand it though.
I've been persecuted... until I found the antidote.
So go on and die for nothing... I'm gon' die for what I'm standing for.
Walking through this sea of suffering, but still I persevere.
I done cried enough... don't need no tattooed tears.
I've been dreaming for years, doubting the man in the mirror,
but if God is with me, homie tell me what I got to fear?
I count the cost on the day I was marked by the Cross
I could die tomorrow as a martyr and there's nothing lost.
So you can't kill me with your weapons, words or prejudice...
How you gonna take my life when God already scheduled it?
Cuz I dream, though it seems...
Everyday it's just me against everything.
And everyday it's just me against everything.

HOOK

VERSE 3
I wait for a new day, where everything's okay and I
can see my dreams before my eyes... before I die.
I'm gon' dream until I'm dead and gone!
I'm gon' dream until I'm dead and gone!
I'm gon' dream until I'm dead and gone!
Cuz I am THE DREAMER.

HOOK

HOOK (Crucifix)
I can barely breathe,
living in this Paradise Lost.
Everything I see around me
is just this chaos that I've caused.

VERSE 1 (Crucifix)
My past is a burden behind me I can never take back,
with consequences that way way outweigh their weight in crack.
Up when it's sunny, about that money
sittin' on the corner with a fyre snow bunny.
One hellafied rock, part raw, part dummy
for the first bad junkie that'll come and get it from me.
I sack blow, stack dough, trying to stack that status quo.
Even though that status don't change a damn thing for the pain I've sold.
I'm rippin' and running my mind until my heart is raw.
Thinking that once it's calloused I won't feel at all.
The pain's so steady... hurt's so heavy.
Sittin' on my chest like a two ton Chevy.
I'm ready to bust like a New Orleans levy, just wishing' a motherfucker would kill me already.
Don't give a fuck what your Pops said!
Steady bumpin at the gums will get you shot dead.
Go ahead and lose your temper like a hothead,
I'm gonna open up your mind like a pot-head... nuff said.
Don't give a fuck what you've been through,
cuz I done got a couple homies in the penn too.
I'll put that dot up on your head like a Hindu
and still kill it with a pistol and a pen too... I sin too.
But if the gift I was given and life that I'm living ain't pointing to Heaven 24/7 then what's the point of repenting?
Because the only path back to the Paradise Lost is a journey that begins at the foot of the cross.

HOOK

VERSE 2 (Cool Breeze)
Now up early in the morning, up in Regency Park.
We bout to get this thing crunk before it gets dark.
I got fifteen sacks, and two fresh 0's...
Fifteen sacks and two 0's are gonna get sold.
About five of them dimes of that mid gon' get blowed.
By the time we shut it down my pockets gon' be on swole.
When them suckers see these hubbas we jumping' it's gonna explode.
When they see that kush we pushin' out front, it's ton' explode.
Anybody come around here that's askin' for me
I'm gon' give them suckers that Fila print off my feet.
And I better not see that sucker up at Central Station.
Man I better not see that sucker passin' the Marta Station.
Look here, I'm gonna tell ya right now, I can fight man.
Bwoi I hit you one time, you'll be like "Aight man!"
Now if I hit you two times it'll be "Goodnight man!"
Nigga I'll whoop on your ass like the white man.

HOOK

INTRO
When I was a child I used to dream of what life would be like when I grew up... I never dreamed it would be like this...

VERSE 1
Somewhere along the way I lost myself, can you see me? Somewhere between my dreams and hell I've given up everything I believed in. But I had a name once... and now I'm someone that no one knows. I had a life once... but this ain't the life I chose. Now I'm empty, drowning myself in my pain and nothing can fill me but this addiction for Cocaine.

VERSE 2
Just one more time and I can leave this life behind. Now once again I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place, this hell I call home. It's got me lookin' like a madman, tryin' to understand this lust for substance that burns in my bones. Suicide on a daily basis, I'm too high to face this pointless, helpless, hopeless, heartless, God forsaken life I've wasted. Could you even fathom what it's like to be broken, steady lookin' for a reason for breathing except this evil you're smoking? And I never get a moment of peace, I'm living to feed the need for me to get geeked 'cause I can't eat and I can't sleep and I can't think what it is I do and what I don't believe...

VERSE 3
I don't see how something so small could take control of me, I've given up everything I've loved, everything I've owned and now there's nothing left but this skin hanging from my bones. I don't know how something so small could rip the life out of my soul... I know that I must be blind but it's taking over my mind, all I want to do is hit it just one more time and I'll be find with this pain that I feel when I'm lonely... I'm lonely. It's got my mind gone, my mind blown, now I'm gone praying for Jesus to take me home... Because I had a God once, but this aint' the God I chose. Now I'm empty, drowning myself in my pain and nothing can fill me but this addiction for Cocaine.

INTRO
In the bowels of life, the only thing we're promised is death... What do you use to kill the pain?
Rappin' was something that I did when I was younger, it wasn't about the money, it was all about the hunger. Now I'm writing while this rap game slumbers, knowing if I didn't then my pain would take me under.

HOOK
Lookin' back on everything that I've lost, I wonder if the lesson was worth the cost. But from here until we make it to the Boss... what's your Pain Pill?

VERSE 1
Jesus Christ, how could I understand a lesson taught to a boy that was meant for a man? All my life I had to stand between purpose and doubt, but what's the point of God's plan if I can't figure it out? A young boy with a machete, hiding in the halls, hearing screams through the windows, bullets bouncing off the walls... As a child in the slaughter it ain't about balls, it's about accepting death the moment that death calls. I remember when my daddy looked me in my eyes, and said "Son I want you to know that tonight you're gonna die, but you fight for your family and life is all that you lose... and you kill as many of these rebel soldiers before you do..." Too young to grasp the meaning of death, but old enough to grasp that killing was all we had left. So you accept the bloodshed in circumstances, and turn a blind eye to conscience while Lucifer dances. This lesson I learned came with a price... growing up believing that death was just a way of life. And to this day I feel the thunder but I never see the rain... I made it out my family's slaughter to end up dying in my pain.

HOOK

VERSE 2
Ain't nothing sweeter than a finger of that Afgoo, to roll up my pain and blow it to my rearview. Cuz dwelling on it multiplies the anger so until I'm gone I'll be known for rolling Gorilla Fangaz! Kill it all! When I got that call from Khujo Goodie, told me that my n*** P-Nut was shot, dropped and bloodied. 3 birds to the chest but just one bird shy, to survive the fire... it took him 3 days to die. Now I hate myself, for 3 days I cried. I gave him dap the night before but never said goodbye... Then 3 days later once I've dried my eyes, I hear my cousin was tortured for 3 days and burnt alive. I was petrified! With one thing to decide... whether or not when I kill these b*** es I cut out their eyes. So as I'm walkin' out the door in a rage of revenge, I realize I'm gambling the lives of my 3 kids. So listen for wisdom, here's the lesson. Everything comes in 3s, even the blessings. So if it took Jesus 3 days to rise from the dead, then here's my Pain Pill... 3 Gorilla Fangaz to the head!!!

HOOK

VERSE 3
I find I'm lost inside this pain from all this death I've seen. And I don't know what it takes to make this suffering leave, until I hear the Boss saying drop your pain on me. But here I go again, seeking out a substance to take away my pain... I notice... I notice that it don't do a thang. I don't mean to be hurtin', I don't need to be burdened. If death is all that's certain then I can live by Faith. Jehovah, Father... I lay my pain at your feet.

HOOK

HOOK
I know what I've seen, I know what I can't forget.
I don't know nothing but these streets.
I'm so tired of selling drugs, hustlin' and bustin' guns,
but I don't know nothing but these streets.

VERSE 1
I started out never lookin' back on my past, living like the world around me was about to crash. I never had sh** but a dream and a blunt in my pocket... No hope but the roach that burns out when I drop it. I don't give a damn about a pig, I'm breakin' the law. Go get the pistol at your crib, I got two in my draws. I been packin' a piece since I stood four foot tall, never trusted a busta with a bigger mouth than his balls. Sixteen as a runnaway, gang war gun play. Seventeen lettin' shots blow on the highway. Eighteen feelin' as hard as God. Nineteen lookin' at a punk judge on a gun charge. I ain't beggin' b*** , put me in jail... Look at where the hell I'm at now, I'm living in hell. What's life? I end up dead or incarcerated, with free room and board, saying "look mom I made it... and I hate it."

HOOK

VERSE 2
I bought four or five Zs with my cash, and now I got four or five tweakers on my ass. Every single one wants a gram or two, but that's how that powder do when them fools finally choose to live like them junkies do. They wuz born to lose, but I wuz born to profit. What you lookin' for cuz I bet you that I got it. I got that powder, let them eat it, then convince them that they need it, they believe it and you're seein' profits rising like a penis. I ain't got no truck on 24's, ain't got no spinnin' rims or no Lamborgini doors... I've always been poor, but I will let you know. I got a 44 and I bet I'll let it blow. Dead cold. Nobody heard it when your ass was gettin' murdered. So I leave that stinky body in a building that's deserted. How perverted and absurd of me to kill you undeservedly. But in time there's sure to be a reason to occur to me...

HOOK

VERSE 3
I lost everything I had so fast, and seen young lives shattered like broken glass. Life ain't fair, so it seems, but I know what it means to be a child and let a bad decision kill your dreams. One minute on the corner sellin' them sacks, the next minute you've lost years you can never get back. Everybody makes mistakes homez, but f*** it... Ain't everybody blessed to get the chance to learn from it. I'm a man now, I understand now that life's hard, but it's all in God's hands now. I find comfort in knowin' I'm blind, but still seein' that His hand's a lot bigger than mine. They can take my life from me, put two in my chest. But if I died for a reason then they're only killing my flesh. If I can rise above this wrong I was taught to repeat, they can't judge me for only ever knowin' These Streets.

HOOK

VERSE 1
I'm just sittin' in my window, throwin' down pennies to the hell below.
Puffin' Afgoo with my kinfolk, wishin' for one day more.
But once my senses burn... this one thing comes to light.

HOOK
Life is fading, with each new day. Slippin' through my fingertips.
And I keep waiting to wake up one day, and life not be like this...
Stuck in the gutter.

VERSE 2
What's pain? What's hurt?
What's life, if it's defined by dirt?
What's rich, if I still die a slave?
I came naked from the womb, I'll go naked to the grave.
Until I make it to the grave, I'm fasho I'll...
be feelin' empty like a junkie on a coke high.
But how are you really supposed to feel once your folk die?
My only answer... get blowed 'til you're so high!
I can't believe we can't see that,
the whole world's losin' it's mind tonight.
And sooner or later you gotta be that,
or homie lose your mind tonight.
But once our senses turn, this one thing comes to light.

HOOK

VERSE 3
I'll burn until my time is gone.
Thinkin' about the times I've known.
Everything that I've seen
is enough to keep a madman feeling at home.
I ain't never let go of the Bible...
But I ain't never let it's words try and change my life.
When living day to day is about survival,
ain't a lot of thought put about living right.
If we're living for nothing... we might as well die forever.
With bullets flyin', and homeboys dyin'
how can I not think about the afterlife?
We fade like leaves, while all the sin that we seek
is the wind, just blowin' us away!

HOOK

HOOK
I love herb, I don't want to fight it so I take that weed and I light it. Ain't nothing in this world to make me want to stay. I want to get high and Fly Away...

VERSE 1
Lookin' back on my life I've come so far from the man that I was... a broken, homeless, hopeless, empty shell, looking for love. I came up out of the gutter with a dream of having some kids, knowing that the life I'd give couldn't be no better than the life that I've lived. But I've got one chance to break this cycle, make right all my wrongs... I swear to Jesus Christ it hurts me just to write out this song. Though everybody's got their demons from the choices we make, we can either burn, learn, run, hide or correct our mistakes. Not caring about life just seemed so simple, shootin' at little kids, until I think about my daughters takin' a bullet for something I did. Then everything that made so much sense is long and forgotten. I hate myself and I can't even remember the reason I shot them, so God tell me... what's love if hate can break it? What's life if death can take it? I don't really believe in life or love... so roll the bud.

HOOK

VERSE 2
I wonder what it takes to be free, crying, confined in my misery. Ain't no pictures of perfected been painted within my history. I'm used to being the subject of peoples aggression, left alone turning to violence and drugs for affection. It's like I'm walking this line between my love and my lust. The streets been calling me for years sayin' "why'd you forget us?" I wanna go back so bad, invitation to my casket. It seems I'm torn between the man I am and a man of the past... you selfish bastard. Actin' like my kids ain't enough. They hug me sayin' "Daddy play with us before we grow up!" So I throw away this gangsta mask before I watch my daughters grow into women on the other side of a prison glass. All that I ask in this life I've been giving is to give back the life I never had to my wife and my children. I pack a blunt then say a prayer, find shelter from stress... and like Psalm 55 I'm gonna Fly Away and be at rest.

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VERSE 3
Love is in the air tonight, but I wouldn't know. When I'm lonely, feeling like the world don't know me... there's nothing here for me. Love is just a lie tonight and that's all I know because I'm lonely, feeling like the world won't hold me... there's nobody here for me.

HOOK

INTRO
Everything I feel is mud... nothing hurts quite like this does... I feel it in my bones. My whole world's spinning from above, and everything I am is mud. Dirty... filthy... I'm shapeless... empty...

VERSE 1
Blood, sweat and tears fuel the hurt, mixed with a lifetime of doing dirt. And all the dirt brings pain until the tears flood, then I wonder why I'm standing knee deep in the mud. Trying to believe in something with no evidence, can't tell the right over the wrong so I ride the fence, because in the end only a terrified fool repents. I'm so dirty that getting clean don't make no sense. And since I can't stop my world from spinning I traded my soul for guns, money, weed and women. The only pleasure that I get is when I'm sinning... This heart won't break but it keeps on bending. Been in, been down this road before, in the back of my mind knowing everything gets old, because when I'm gone everything I loved fades quick , but every time I reach for the Truth I slip...

HOOK
Everything I feel is mud... nothing hurts quite like this does... my whole world's spinning from above, and everything I am is mud.

VERSE 2
I can't take this confusion no more, time to let it go. Pull myself together and try stepping out on my own... A child born like a paper doll, because every step out on my own ends up a nasty fall. I head straight down until I hit rock bottom, then hear a voice in the chaos saying "I got him!" Then two hands slowly pick me up, I notice holes in the wrists as they lift me up out this mess I've made... the hell I've been... Then all the sudden everything's spinning again. I'm screaming, "God, where you at? I thought that you loved me? I can't make it alone, don't take your hand from me!" Then everything goes still... the spinning don't stop but His hand is all I feel. Then as I pray God use me to do your will I realize I'm standing on a pottery wheel...

Everything I am is mud in my Father's hands above... Mold me... make me... take me... break me...

HOOK

VERSE 1
I was born in the city, it wasn't pretty dawg.
My life fallin' through the crack that I'm smokin' on.
Rationalizing everything that I knew was wrong.
Sippin' sin 'til it baptized me, wrapping myself in these chains...
And I'll be gone in a minute.

Sin called... I heard.
Compromised my heart for a pile of dirt.
One wrong, turned right...
a second later I can't even tell wrong from right.
Top speed, downhill.
A little anger turns quick into the thought to kill.
A couple blunts, a couple pills,
a couple lines, just to cover up how I feel.
I'm wrong and I know it, but I can't even care no more.
I'm just tryin' not to show it... wonderin' what I'm livin' for?
Stuck in between my faith and my demons, and I'm
kickin' and screamin' just lookin' for meaning in life.
Too proud to believe in a God I ain't seein'
still I want it even though I'm...

HOOK
A slave tonight, free in regard to right.
Thinkin' I'm lovin' every minute.
A slave for life, and I can't even see the light.
But I'll be gone any minute.

VERSE 2
Forget the God-thing...
If anything's raining down on me from heaven, it's a lot of pain.
But in the end, I'll be wonderin' what it was I gained
from fillin' my life with the things of which I'm now ashamed.
What if in the end I find I'm wrong,
and I ain't got nothin' left?
When everything I loved is dead and gone,
and the paycheck to my sin is death?
God you see what I've been through
and all this life that I've ruined.
Where all these things that I don't want to do,
is what I find myself doin'.
But I'm free! And I love it!
I've seen God and I want some more of it!
I'm still a slave... just a different master.
But I've never worn chains that felt so free!!!

HOOK

You know we all like to put tags on people don't we? Try to make them like everybody else. There's nobody in this world that can tag you, because nobody knows how you really feel inside. No friend, no gang member, no preacher, or priest, or rabbi, or social worker, or psychiatrist, nobody… That's why I don't preach religion. I preach about a Man. The only One who knows why you do the things you do, the only One who knows what's bugging you, what's eating you. The only One who has the power to do anything about it. I don't care who you cut, I don't care what you've been smoking, shooting, I don't care who you've been laying around with… God loves you anyways. He knows about your angers, your fears, your frustrations. He knows that most of you have fought, that some of you have even killed. But God also knows what you can be like in the future, not just what you've been in the past. God looked at the sins in our hearts, all our hearts, yours, mine, everybody's… and He hated those sins. But God turned away from His own hate and sent His only Son into this world to love us. Why don't you stop crying about the sins of the past! Stop paying for those sins, man it's all paid up… it's FREE!!! All you have to do is just accept it. Just open up your hearts and let all that bitterness run out. Don't wait until you're good enough because that day is never gonna come. Come on with all your hangups, let Jesus clean you up.

VERSE 1
I'm feelin' like... uselessness.
I'm feelin' like, there's nothing I can do
to make me feel alive, when I'm this far from You.
I can't take this life and make it make any sense.
I can't make it right... so still I ride this fence.
Torn between the God I love and the memories of my sin.
But every time I fail is a reminder that I need you again.

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Jesus, hold me in Your arms like a child.
Cuz You it's been a minute since Your baby smiled.
Lift me out of this hole that I've dug.
I put Your mercy on... then trade it for this world I love.
Forget about today and how I failed.
Tomorrow will be another day to prove myself.
I'm sick of feelin' so rotten...
But today will be yesterday, and yesterday will be forgotten.

VERSE 2
This life that I hate... still walkin' in the shadows of my mistakes.
My sin, in my face... still livin' in this past I can't erase.
I'm a broken life, put back together by You.
Yet it's this broken life that I keep on runnin' to.
I know it's gotta be just sympathy that got You holdin' onto me.
I've been wrong for so long... I don't know what You see in me.

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VERSE 3
I'm hangin' on the edge...
Somewhere in the middle of this war in my head.
I'm tryin' to walk a line...
pretending everything is fine,
when I'm dead inside. It's just a piece of me I let nobody know.
I'm so tired of chasin' You to let You go...
I can't take it no more, cuz each time that I leave,
is like steppin' in a world with no air to breathe.
I'm on my knees is shame, cryin' out Your beautiful name!

HOOK